[
oh.
her expression doesn't change, but her eyes do flicker slightly— a little darker, a little duller. ]
... I see. Isn't that somewhat unkind to them, though...?
oh.
her expression doesn't change, but her eyes do flicker slightly— a little darker, a little duller. ]
... I see. Isn't that somewhat unkind to them, though...?
...No? I mean, I dunno. I guess you could argue either way. When people die, see, they're supposed to go to the Far Shore - the afterlife. Some of them, though, get unlucky and get stuck in the place in between the two shores; that's where things like ghosts, phantoms, and gods like me live. Most of them'll wander around, no memories, no anything, and eventually get eaten up by phantoms or turn into one themselves.
...Or, a god can Name them, can use their life to give that spirit a place to belong--'you, with nowhere to go and nowhere to return to'... it's like that.
...Or, a god can Name them, can use their life to give that spirit a place to belong--'you, with nowhere to go and nowhere to return to'... it's like that.
[ he dims a little himself, here, gaze casting away across the ground ]
And I mean... we're connected one directionally; we'll feel every emotion they feel, we'll hurt when they hurt, and any time they do something they don't believe is right, we get stung. I could end up so sick I died from it, depending on how much they hated what I was tryin' to make them do...
And I mean... we're connected one directionally; we'll feel every emotion they feel, we'll hurt when they hurt, and any time they do something they don't believe is right, we get stung. I could end up so sick I died from it, depending on how much they hated what I was tryin' to make them do...
[ ...watching him, measuring that reaction. taken all together, that's both better and worse than her immediate assumption, but still... ]
...more or less making the best of a bad situation, then. I suppose it depends on the feelings of the individual in question.
...more or less making the best of a bad situation, then. I suppose it depends on the feelings of the individual in question.
[ he is officially her new favorite person. lifting her arm and squinting a little before reaching for it with both hands ]
Thank you...
[ sssipping— or she could just. end up draining half of it in one go, that is also an option. blinking at it like she's not sure where that all just went, glancing at him sheepishly, and then sort of shrugging and drinking the rest of it because she might as well, at that point. ]
... hff. I'm sorry for being somewhat bad mannered; that was incredibly unpleasant.
Thank you...
[ sssipping— or she could just. end up draining half of it in one go, that is also an option. blinking at it like she's not sure where that all just went, glancing at him sheepishly, and then sort of shrugging and drinking the rest of it because she might as well, at that point. ]
... hff. I'm sorry for being somewhat bad mannered; that was incredibly unpleasant.
Well, at least that will make us feel better.
...Hopefully.
...Hopefully.
sorry about vanishing, short notice move + finals week is a bad combo for free time
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ghostfromthemachine
2018-08-26 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ of course she just put food in her mouth. swallowing ]
I'm Kaiko Minaru. ...I would say "please take care of me," but...
[ gestures at the bento. he's got THAT covered already ]
I'm Kaiko Minaru. ...I would say "please take care of me," but...
[ gestures at the bento. he's got THAT covered already ]
My—
... as far as I can tell? Is there a reason I wouldn't?
... as far as I can tell? Is there a reason I wouldn't?
I haven't ever kept anybody who wanted to go.
[ —raising both hands ]
I'm sorry, I didn't intend to imply that you would. I more meant... in general, I suppose.
... I actually started out as a ghost, so. You can probably see why I'm being less than graceful about the concept.
I'm sorry, I didn't intend to imply that you would. I more meant... in general, I suppose.
... I actually started out as a ghost, so. You can probably see why I'm being less than graceful about the concept.
[kind of waving that off]
Ah, it's nothing. Nice to meet you. I'm just glad the good got sent along with me, even though it's weird that someone must have chosen what to send.
Ah, it's nothing. Nice to meet you. I'm just glad the good got sent along with me, even though it's weird that someone must have chosen what to send.
Mm. I dunno. I think I might like it.
Somebody wanting you, somebody naming you, giving something of themself to keep you with them, being that important to them.... that might feel nice
Somebody wanting you, somebody naming you, giving something of themself to keep you with them, being that important to them.... that might feel nice
[ stretching, abruptly, and giving herself a shake ]
Like I said, it isn't a bad concept now that you've explained it more. It's just... I've fought pretty hard to be the person I am now from a point not too unlike what you described. And I'm proud of that effort, and I'm proud of the results. So... the thought of potentially being snapped up and having that path smoothed out, having those things not happen... I don't know. Even if I would have been happy...
[ ...mm. she chuckles a little under her breath ]
Well, it's more than a little pointless to get fussy over something that didn't happen. I'm sorry about that.
Like I said, it isn't a bad concept now that you've explained it more. It's just... I've fought pretty hard to be the person I am now from a point not too unlike what you described. And I'm proud of that effort, and I'm proud of the results. So... the thought of potentially being snapped up and having that path smoothed out, having those things not happen... I don't know. Even if I would have been happy...
[ ...mm. she chuckles a little under her breath ]
Well, it's more than a little pointless to get fussy over something that didn't happen. I'm sorry about that.
I-- I'm not surprised. I never liked the idea of disappearing. I always said that I wouldn't.
[o_o]
Are you okay now? Do you need anything else?
[o_o]
Are you okay now? Do you need anything else?
[ he laughs a bit, kind of wetly ]
Oh, it's definitely not smooth. Yukine's put a lot of fight and energy into becoming the person he is, too. If anything, being with me probably just made it harder on him. But he's--turned into a really good kid. I'm super proud of him, I hope he's super proud of himself, too. Either way--I can't change him. He has to do that himself. You would have been okay.
Oh, it's definitely not smooth. Yukine's put a lot of fight and energy into becoming the person he is, too. If anything, being with me probably just made it harder on him. But he's--turned into a really good kid. I'm super proud of him, I hope he's super proud of himself, too. Either way--I can't change him. He has to do that himself. You would have been okay.
I don't doubt that. But I wouldn't have been "myself."
[ a beat, and then she adds in the driest tone possible: ]
...I'm also something of a control freak as far as my autonomy goes, so there's that. Of course the thought gives me hives.
[ a beat, and then she adds in the driest tone possible: ]
...I'm also something of a control freak as far as my autonomy goes, so there's that. Of course the thought gives me hives.
I meant physically, but I'm glad one of us is doing all right on the other front.
... well. Now I'm going to be wondering if I'm missing things without realizing it, so thank you very much for that.
I ate a deer this week. There is a lot, for the nausea to work over.
Mm— ah. Not necessarily? If this was at all automated, there could probably be some sort of filter set up.
[ she's never going to live that down, is she .-. ]
Mnn... well enough, anyway. I don't think there's much else to do for the rest aside from waiting it out, but I appreciate the concern.
[ and getting her shrine set back up asap, but that's going to have to wait until she's in any shape to scope things out. ]
Mnn... well enough, anyway. I don't think there's much else to do for the rest aside from waiting it out, but I appreciate the concern.
[ and getting her shrine set back up asap, but that's going to have to wait until she's in any shape to scope things out. ]
[ makes a noise under her breath, one part sympathy to one part irritated amusement ]
I have an empty stomach, but I did just have something metaphysically more or less torn off, so. I don't think either of us is really winning that competition.
I have an empty stomach, but I did just have something metaphysically more or less torn off, so. I don't think either of us is really winning that competition.
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